I know I've been neglecting this blog but I think I have sort of a good excuse.... and one not so good.

First of all, this being the not so good excuse part, I've been feeling a little down. I sort of lost motivation for a while there, and still sort of have. I'm the type of person who can't see past tomorrow so it's sometimes hard to envision where I want to be. I've been trying really hard to concentrate but for the life of me I can't keep my mind focused on what it is I want to be doing. Right now, I want to continue learning Japanese which I am somehow still failing at, start school, start the vlog, and be all otaku-ish.

When it comes to learning Japanese, I always, always, ALWAYS hit this wall! It's the same damn wall that I can never seem to get over. I get bored of what I'm doing and just don't want to do it anymore so I stop. I get lazy and don't want to practice or study and this is just a part of me that I'm trying very desperately to overcome. I always do good for about two weeks to a month and then hit the wall, at this rate I'll never learn this language that I've been trying to learn for years. I feel like I'm suffocated by my self and it's a very annoying feeling. Though, I think I've found motivation in someone though I won't say who. Lets just say I've always felt jealous of this person and still do, in all honesty as I am human and <_< the jealous type, but now I feel more admiration than the former. If they could do this than so can I, regardless of different occupational choices ^^. I feel like I can concentrate a bit more now.

School. I finally have orientation for college on Friday and I get to registrar on the same day. My sister, Ms. Plume wants me to take the same Art Appreciation class with her so I'm going to try and do that. School is something I hate as you can obviously tell I hate to learn or otherwise I wouldn't suck so bad at learning Japanese. It's going....to hurt to get used to going to school again. I actually really, really, really, REALLY do NOT want to go. At all. But this is the only way I can fulfill my dream so I'm going to bite my tongue and dive head first into this pool of suck.

The vlog. I can't wait to start this and have decided to start it in June. Not really on June first, but some in the first two weeks of June just so I can have stuff to talk about. And, to get a few things cleared up from the room that is soon to be mine. ^^ in case you didn't know, I haven't had a bedroom in years. I've slept in the living room on the couch for a good...oh, five or so years. My eldest sister, Ms. Tonks is moving out into an apartment with her boyfriend and that room gets to be mine ^^ so that has me very happy. I've never had my own room O: I'm going to have a ball!

Speaking of Ms. Tonks and her boyfriend, I have a feeling they're going to get married soon. Just, you know...word of mouth and beating around the bush sort of things have been going on. I'll let you (that is, the internet as no one reads my blog. Followers? Psh! I know such followers! (this is true o;))

So, now it's come to Otaku-ish. How so? I've decided, FINALLY on the final quota of my cosplay commissions. I'm going to buy two costumes in June, them being er...M and B. Lets go with that for now! The total is going to be around...(Note: I seriously got out a calculater as I fail at math) $290 with out shipping costs. I'm excited!

I'm also going to purchase a lot of drama box sets for my birthday gift to myself near the end of June. As for Ms. Plume's birthday as it is on the 9th, I told her she's going to have to wait a bit for it to come in. She doesn't read my blog so it's fine to say what it is ^^. I'm getting her seasions 1-5 of Sailor Moon <3. I know she'll love it!

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Now, I mentioned having a good excuse, right?

Well, about a week ago I got bit by a spider. No big deal, it was just a dust-colored house spider and I'd been bitten by one before...on the same leg <_<;, anyway, what happened was...somehow, the bite got injured. Maybe I scratched it in my sleep or something but it got infected. Badly infected to the point that I couldn't walk for like three days before I went to the doctors. Needless to say, I'm now on strong antibiotics and painkillers as well as an ointment to treat the skin.

Let me explain to you how badly this hurt.

I could not sit down. I could not stand up. I could not walk and I could not lay down. I was really at a loss and was feeling really exhausted from trying to find SOMEWAY I could be without hurting myself.

“Why couldn't you walk with your other leg?”

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Er. Well, you see! Being me, my left foot (right leg had the infection) had suffered an injury via knife. I stabbed myself in the foot so I really couldn't walk on that leg either ^^. I'm not emo or anything, what had happened was I was loading the dishwasher and a knife fell out and stabbed me in between my little toe and the other toe next to it. Yeah...it didn't hurt until I started walking around and noticed bloody footprints on the floor. Talk about a late reaction!

So, that is my better reason for not updating this blog in a while.

Oh, I can walk now ^^ painkillers are awesome <3. But now it just itches a lot D:

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Concerning Otaku Nation, I've neglected it as I was feeling really tired from the previous endeavor but I will have one updated on Sunday. I promise this. Cross my heart and hope to....fail a class. Not to die because ...well, I don't want to die O: I like living. It's fun ^^

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Not much more to say except something that I've been wanting to tell someone for a while.

I'm getting my lip pierced. I'm cutting my hair again and I'm getting my chain. ^^ my father is going to hate me <3

So,

until next time,　にっこり笑ってください。

じゃね！ (~_~/^)

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